So.. Was let go yesterday:( I cant even put into words right now how sad and mad I feel at he same time. At the end of the day one of my bosses asked me into his office and pulled out 2 checks( I knew what that meant) I could feel the tears coming but I held them in. He gave me all these bs excuses why he didn't need me anymore. I knew in my head that he was lying. I'm not sure what the real reason was because I was there every day on time, did all my work, stayed overtime, helped other departments. I feel like its something PERSONAL, and that's what makes me feel worse. At least If i knew it was my job performance but now its me! I keep thinking in my head.. What is wrong with me?
I wouldn't really mingle with my work collies. They just weren't people I wanted to hang with. I would go to lunch alone and only people I would really talk to were the people in the transportation dept. All they would do is cuss, say nasty jokes, and on many ocassions talk crap about eachother and I didnt wanna be around that. I don't mind a nasty joke but in my opinion it has to be in a different place. On Wed night I lost all respect for my bosses. I stayed overtime and my bosses are husband & wife. When Iwas hired I knew this might be a problem. They started arguing (in front of me) yelling "FUCK you" over and over again and she said she quit and stormed off.. Crazyyy!!! You know makes me more mad??? Is they let me go after their busiest day of the week. They made me do all this work, and even learn new stuff to help this girl and then he let me go. What an ASSHOLE! As soon as I left I called J and that's when I let everything out. I couldn't stop crying, and it was the kind of crying where you cant breathe:( He told me to go to his house and his bro would open the door for me cause he was on his way from work. I then called my mom, dad, and sis. They all told me its OK and something better will come. They all knew I didn't care for my job much , but It was a job. I was getting paid, doing something with my life besides watch TV all day! I'm happy I have supporting people around me, and I have to have the faith that something better will come, but its really hard right now. When I went to bed last night and was saying my prayer I started asking God why? what did I do? Then I felt bad for thinking that and questioning him. He has his reasons and I have to believe in him. This blogging make me feel better in a way kind of like my diary so sorry if its boring. I know my grammar isn't right sometimes, but just me venting. So as of today, I'm on the hunt again. Wish me luck!! Thanks for reading.
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